Wow…..that’s really all I can say….Wow…..

I got on the scale this morning…a card came out….said “one at a time”…..

My battle with my weight is raging……and i’m losing……sure, I can blame the holidays and the sugar and the rich food….and simply the fact that its the holiday season….

But that’s weak..don’t you think?……the truth……(and I’m always seeking the truth)…the truth is, my decisions to eat all that stuff (and drink stuff too) is at the core of my physical state….. I know….I’ve been through this before…..the never ending battle….the craving…..the giving in only to gorge ones-self on more bad stuff…..what I feel is a lack of discipline…(Its really not that either)…..

The truth is, i’m using the season as an excuse to overeat because I love eating…and it fills an emotional void somehow….but i’m not even going back there…to all the introspective stuff I did last year…..i’m moving forward with the little bit of growth I’ve achieved…..(spiritual not physical)….I need to address this issue from another perspective…..and as yet I haven’t figured out what perspective it oughta be…….I could go to one of those clinics..but I already did that and lost weight… I could go on Adkins…but I already did that and lost a lot of weight…. I could cut out sugar….oh, I did that too…some time back…..I could starve myself…go on a fast….. Oh, I did that one years ago…lost 35 pounds in 5 weeks…got circles under my eyes and gained that weight back too….

Diet and exercise…diet and exercise…..its the only way….the ONLY way….the rest of the methods just line someone else’s pocket with my money………

Had a great dinner at “Idea Guy’s” last night..with our new buddies Tony and Barb…oh, and today, I gotta get into the office….were having a Pot-Luck and I gotta bring barbecued ribs….. I’m thinking of that ad on TV..

“Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I’ll start to lose tomorrow”……well, maybe I could learn that stupid little dance that guy does anyway…..a smidgen of exercise…..